"Useless Information"

My head feels like it's about to explode.

I've been at training to be a Technology Center consultant all day, and I've been bombarded with so much information it's making my head spin. It's not so much that I was given a lot of information that I need to know right this second, but I was introduced to about a hundred different avenues to learn the secrets of the technological world. And now I want all of it.

Which again is making me rethink exactly what I want to do with my life. I'm really starting to get into telecom and I love it, but there's different routes there with video game design, web design, regular filmmaking, and animation. Then there's just the technical parts to that--figuring out how everything works together and to make the final product work. And then there's this whole English thing I'm mostly done with. Then there's the whole graphic design idea tugging at me to learn what I can about color and shape and form... Then the practical side of me wants to pursue something more logical, even journalism where I can stay in Evansville and find a job, whereas the other areas would leave that completely illogical. Then of course is my passion for--but minimal understand of--music. And this New Testament course I'm taking is making me want to pursue religious studies more. And what do I do with the years I've invested in color guard and all the things I still want to do with that, even though I have a gimp knee and no world class experience to throw around in the arena of show design?

What's a guy to with all of these options? There is SO much information out there, and I want all of it. But I still need the things that keep me going, the things that I've always envisioned for myself: a family, great friends, a nice two-story house with a bedroom for my kids and a picket fence, a chocolate lab and a yellow lab frolicking in the yard with my kids as Jenna and I gaze lovingly into each other's eyes on the porch swing.

Oh right, this is reality. These things don't happen in the real world.

But honestly, I'm hoping that this semester provides a little more direction. I have a really good idea of where I want to go, but I've just got to narrow it down to something I can tell people when they ask me, "So what do you want to do after college?"