"This Is Your Life"

I feel like tonight is the first night I can truly breathe.

As always, quite a bit has happened in the almost-month since my last update. I've all but officially dropped Calculus. I'm inevitably going to have a W on my record for either Calculus or Finite at this point, but if I complete the course my W disappears. So I may just try to take Finite over the summer and at least have that off my record. All in all, I'm not really doing this whole college thing very well.

The good news: I'm almost officially a Telecommunications major. I had my advisor start the paperwork, but now I have to do some running from building to building to make everything official. So I'll just wait until I'm back in the Radio-TV building on Thursday. No rush, right?

Lately I've been consumed by the thought of my future. Probably because it's time to schedule classes and I don't know what to take (trying to graduate within a reasonable amount of time is one of the most frustrating things I've ever done) and also because I have an adorable baby nephew, which makes me want a baby of my own. No worries, I'm not that excited for one--there won't be any babies with half of my genetic code any time soon. It's just kind of exciting/terrifying to think that someday I'll have a house and a family of my own. I really feel like I should be more scared than I am, but there's something calming about the idea of it all.

One last little nugget for you to chew on before I snuggle into my nice warm bed...

One of the most painful things to experience is trying to make amends with someone you were once incredibly close to, especially when the reasons you're no longer close are just stupid. So if you're going through that, know that you're not alone. I don't have much enlightenment beyond that; I really wish I did.