"Finding Home"

So I'm not really sure what sparked it, but last night it hit me that I really, really miss being part of a community.

I think it's been a culmination of a lot of things. First of all, I started watching Glee (more about that later) and it really reminded me of being in high school and having my close-knit group of friends in drama, band, and guard. Then of course there was the huge letdown of thinking I could do Usurpation and then realizing that I don't have that

kind of money. There's always the running problem that I just don't have a Christian community to fall back on. At all. Every church I've been too feels either overdone or just shady, and every campus group I've been to feels more gimmicky than genuine. And of course it's still really hard being on a new floor when the kids I've talked to just don't seem interested in making new friends outside of their existing groups, and being back on my old floor just feels... wrong.

Again, I'm not sure that's really going anywhere just yet, but that's how I feel. So now on to the fun stuff...

I'm completely addicted to both Glee and So You Think You Can Dance. The two Wednesday nights I've been over at Jenna's watching it with the girls have been a two hour block I like to call "embracing my inner gay" since I'm not sure I could do anything more gay in those two hours other than having sexual intercourse with another man.

I've officially dropped Calculus and signed up for a math class that is apparently for retarded people (me?) because it's not even 100-level. It's M018 and it meets four days a week for the last eight weeks of the semester. The good news is that it's 2 credit hours (bringing me up to a whopping 14 for this smester) and it's supposed to help prepare for M118, which I had an insane amount of trouble with last time around.

That being said, next semester looks like it's going to be full of general requirements. In fact, I may only get to take one production class, and it might just be another intro class. After that things should get better since I'll be done with ALL of my prerequisites and I can focus solely on my major and minor(s).

But after the first day in Studio 5 for the studio lab portion of T283, I'm pretty excited to be a telecommunications major, even if I rarely get to touch equipment and I can't do anything on my own. It makes my time with a camera that much more special.

At least I keep telling myself that.